Hello my loves! ♥

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week so far!

Mine has actually not been too stressful! I hope I don’t jinx myself in saying that.
The great thing about me being a bit obsessive about school and studying is I get ahead. Yes, I am that person who goes to the library Friday…Saturday…oh wait and yes Sunday.  But I read what we will be doing the next week, that at least get’s me familiar with the material, so when when we “go over” it in class I kind of already know what’s going on. Less stress for me. Me likey.

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But unfortunately, I still am busy, and meals haven’t been as pretty. And still quick.  I really wanted to do an update post on my challenges for this week, but it just hasn’t been able to happen.

Yes breakfast’s look like this again.

is that a quick sandwich? a trader joes yogurt? and textbook? yes kids you guessed it. this girl had breakfast at the library again.

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But I will do an update post on how I did on challenging my dinner eating trends and new meals.

But for this week’s What I Ate Wednesday I thought I would do a flash back of when I actually had time to prepare my meals! They were sooo much prettier.  Maybe it can be inspiration for me (and maybe you!) to switch things up a bit more.  There is nothing wrong with snacking a bit before dinner, that way I’m not so ravenous and can actually prepare a better and more complete meal for myself.

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Before we get started though, you know the routine. Go give Jenn at PeasandCrayons some love, because without her this wouldn’t be possible.

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Here are some of my favorite meals that I have made in the past.

this really makes me miss berry season. oh the days when i had time to prepare my breakfast. these were chocolate oats topped with chocolate soy pudding, fresh banana, strawberries and a little crumble of peanut butter puffins. you want to talk about a delicious breakfast? this was one of them.

I swear I am so proud of that bowl of oatmeal. It’s like a work of art. And trust me. It was super tasty too.

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this here creation was my pumpkin quesadilla. sans cheese. i believe it had pumpkin, apple, and cinnamon in it. on the side cottage cheese with trader joes pineapple salsa and a tiny yogurt mess topped with puffins and ... some other cereal. looks possibly like fiber one.

Ok. I can’t believe I am going to say this, because this point in my recovery was kind of. um hell. But sometimes I miss the days when I could eat huge meals and it not matter. At that point in my recovery I had to eat huge meals. I was never satisfied. Which in an eating disordered mind is hell. Consuming that much food. But let me tell you, it was a lot more fun.

(ps it’s good…and bad that I look back at some of these meals and still see my eating disordered eating. Fiber One? Seriously? No one REALLY likes that stuff, but it’s super low calories.)

The quesadilla was super good though. Random? Yes. Tasty? Also yes.

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ok another bowl of oats, but this was an introduction to two very delicious things. pumpkin oats and coconut butter.

If you followed my blog at all you would know I got obsessed with the Cacoa Bliss chocolate coconut butter. And if it wasn’t so expensive and I didn’t have to buy it online I would still probably be using it daily. But regular coconut butter (on top of peanut butter of course) over pumpkin oats. Was.To.Die.For.

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ok are we seeing an oatmeal pattern here? can't help it. i love them. every which way and form.

I believe one of my first oatmeal pancakes topped with chocolate protein frosting. Delish.

Shameless plug. Check out my gingerbread oatmeal pancake recipe. Ah-mazing.

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oh i use to make so many whole wheat tortilla hummus pizza's. this one i think actually has trader joes black bean dip as the "sauce" topped with baby spinach, yellow bell pepper, red bell pepper, zuchinni, and cherry tomatoes.

I’ve also made these with pumpkin as my base. Hummus, pumpkin, black bean dip. All amazing.

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oh my. my tofu scramble addiction time. again really makes me miss fresh fruit. ah fresh farmers market peaches and tomatoes. i miss you guys! salsa tofu scramble on a bagel with fresh tomato slice and fresh strawberries and peach on the side.

And while we’re on the topic.

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a pumpkin tofu scramble made with my homemade pumpkin peanut butter. basically just mix pumpkin with peanut butter, but it was amazing.

I’m pretty much convinced anything mixed with peanut butter is amazing. And pumpkin is always good. Duh.

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And last but not least. Something I have not made in forever that I need to.

a tempeh buffalo salad. i love tempeh. i love salads. i love buffalo. win.

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So those are some of my old favorite meals. Looking back at them really makes me want to experiment more in the kitchen again. I feel like at the beginning I did that a lot, and yes I had more time, but I also wanted to. I feel like I am getting into that comfort zone again and eating the same things, because they are safe. But I am getting to the actual weight gain part of my recovery and that scares the crap out of me.  But that’s what I need to do. I need to scare my ED, because if I don’t, it will always win.

I’ve actually done really well so far this week. Eating new things. “Higher fat” meals. And yes I feel horrible sometimes afterwards or the next day, but I need to do it.

Because in reality, in order to be a successful veterinary technician, I can’t be underweight.  So that’s some motivation for me as well.

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Before I leave all your lovlies, I have one more shameless plug.

I posted this on twitter the other day, but feel the need to share.

i had to pee so bad. but i couldn't find it in my heart to disrupt this. i eventually did of course because i didn't want wet pants, but seriously. how cute can you get?

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Do you ever look back on old meals to get inspiration?

One real good thing about blogging is I can look back for inspiration.  Otherwise I might forget about all the tasty meals I’ve made.

What happens when you feel like you get in a food rut? Do you stay in it or try and switch it up?

I’ve always said if you’re in a rut, go with it if it’s something you enjoy eating.  But eating the same meals constantly in reality I’ve learned is not good.  You need variety. It really does help in keeping you satisfied as well.