Hello loves and happy Monday!

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I have a new love for Monday’s now as I get to participate in the lovely Katie’s Marvelous In My Monday.

I use this time to recap on my weekend and some of the wonderful things that happened. Because honestly, as of late, my weekends have been amazing. I am really starting to get back to that normal frame of thinking, losing more and more of my eating disorder each day and just living and enjoying life.

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But what is normal anyways?

Let me tell you what my normal has been.

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Friday night we went up to see Matt’s parents. Matt’s mom has not been feeling too well due to a recent GI tumor she had removed. She responded horribly to it at first. Was very nauseous. Could not keep any food down at all. It was a very scary time. Finally the doctors sort of figured out what was going on and seemed to have fixed it. She seems to be getting back to her old self which is amazing to see. We were so worried about her. So it was great to be able to go see them and spend some quality time with them.

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Normal occurrence #1.

Matt’s parents, especially his mom, were very accommodating to my eating disorder. They allowed me to eat separate meals, go grocery shopping for my own food, and never questioned it. That was a good and bad thing.  Good they understood my troubles with my recovery process at first, bad because it allowed my eating disorder to still take control. Normal people visit in-laws and eat what they cook and have dinner together.

(Old picture from Christmas (yes this is what Christmas looks like in Arizona) but I love this family!!)

When we arrived Friday night, dinner was in the oven. Matt’s dad was cooking. No questions asked if the meal was ok with me or not. First I got a little mad. Almost refusing to eat dinner. They were making enchiladas. I had no idea what was in them, how they were prepared, and that scared that crap out of me. No wait. Scared the crap out of ED. I’m not going to lie, I kind of pouted for a bit. Then I realized how ridiculous I was being. I was there to spend time with Matt’s parents. This was just dinner. Get over it. Eat it. And I did. and it was delicious. (And guess what, I didn’t die or probably gain an ounce. Imagine that.)

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Normal occurrence #2

Saturday night we had plans to go out for dinner. Chili’s. I knew this was going to happen, so I kind of mentally prepared myself for this one and I knew I wanted to challenge myself. So when the chips and queso were ordered, guess who dived right in? This girl. And guess who still finished their entree? This girl. I owned Chili’s that night. And not a shred of guilt.  That is the most refreshing thing and the real accomplishment. Not that I can do these normal things now, but that I don’t even give it the time of day to dwell on it anymore. It just is what it is.

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Normal occurrence #3

Sunday was the soccer finals match. Matt and I made plans to go to the Irish pub we went to for a a previous game. Lunch would be eaten out. Three days in a row? Could this girl do it?

She did.

I may be the only weird person who orders sushi at an Irish pub, but let’s face it. I love sushi.

There was also a little bit of this.

Soccer. Beer. My babses. I was good to go.

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Then the unthinkable happened.

After the match. (and Spain won. Yay) I suggested to go see a movie.

We saw Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter.

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(I read the book. Book = much better)

And I even ate movie theater popcorn.

Oh yes I did.

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Let’s say I am a bit challenged out. But it was so amazing to have a normal weekend.

And yes, Sunday night it all hit me a bit, but not nearly as bad as it use to. And that’s when I really know I am progressing. And it feels wonderful.

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Loves I hope you all had an amazing weekend as I did. And I hope you all have a wonderful 4th of July holiday!

I have another challenge for myself in store. A friend is having a pool party cook out.

Something I have avoided.

This girl is going in a bikini and eating BBQ.

Watch out world.

Debbie is back and in the best way possible.

Healthy.

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Do you have any 4th of July plans?

Have you challenged yourself lately?