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I can’t decide if it being Wednesday has come quickly, or if the week is going by slow.

My week has already been so jam packed I’m happy the week is halfway through, but I also feel like Friday can’t come soon enough.

For starters this week at school has been intense.

I am in Microbiology and we are starting to learn all the bacteria.

Do you know how many bacteria there are? A lot. And it’s almost impossible to learn them all.

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I sure am trying though.

I also have had an intense week in terms of my recovery.

Guys, I think I am finally making the weight gain plunge and have developed the mind set of “just do it” because honestly, that’s the what I have to do.

For anyone who has recovered from an eating disorder this is one of the hardest things to accept. You know what you need to do (gain weight),  you know you need to do it, yet it’s just so dang hard to do. Which is weird.

But let’s take a break from all the heaviness and take some time for fun, positive things.

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Things like What I Ate Wednesday.


As per usual, make sure you head over to Jenn’s and check out what everyone else is eating as well.
We all know it’s usually more exciting than mine.
But while you’re here…
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I did manage to snap a few pictures of a few interesting eats, so let’s get to that.
Remember this snap shot I showed you recently?
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I had big plans for this guy. Big plans indeed.
Ironically the day I had planned to have my wonderful OIAJ, the inspirational Sarah posted an Instagram picture of her “chocolate cake” oats that were in the making.
Monkey see, monkey do.
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I literally copied her Instagram photo and posted my own.
Imitation is highest form of flattery right?
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I made my oatmeal/TVP chocolate cake prOATS (thanks to Plant Fusion chocolate, NuNaturals vanilla Stevia and a little vanilla and nut butter flavoring) and added them to my beautiful Wild Squirrel chocolate sunflower seed butter jar that was waiting for me.
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He did not disappoint.
I don’t make oatmeal enough.
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So with a delicious, satisfying breakfast accomplished, it was on to the stressful school situation.
But I got a little help in that department too.
I have wonderful classmates who make it just a bit more enjoyable.
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Ok, I know I have been eating a lot of cupcakes lately, and I almost passed this one up. But so glad I didn’t.
This seemingly simple chocolate cupcake was topped with the most amazing fresh raspberry frosting. It literally was amazing raspberry goodness in my mouth.
And every bite was delicious. (and guilt-free, win!)
So with that being said let me take a moment to acknowledge my new found success in the weight gaining department.
(Feel free to skip this part if you’re not interested in my eating disorder conversation. You won’t hurt my feelings. It’s not for everyone.)
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For the past 6 months, I have been going up and down in the weight gain department. I would have a few weeks of really good progress and then I would just stall again. I know I need to gain weight. I want to gain weight. But when I actually pushed myself, made myself uncomfortable, I always questioned it with “will I be able to stop”. Well, I didn’t question it, my ED was just trying to scare me and stop me. And sometimes he won.
But great conversations with Matt, his help to push me to eat even when I wasn’t hungry and to eat foods that scared me, made me realize I need to do this. For me. For my health.
So our new motto was I was not gaining weight, I was getting healthy.
Amazing what changing that perspective can do for motivation and acceptance.
So I’ve accepted that I need to get healthy. And I think finally I am mentally able to accept that.
(with the help of my amazing fiance, nutritionist and therapist as great support)
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Ok back to fun stuff.
Other meals sadly have been low key due to the craziness of school (however come back soon for the amazing crock pot recipe I have cooking as we speak!) but I have managed to sneak in a few tasty snacks.
First to celebrate Matt and I finally cracked open this bad boy.
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We have had this brand in the Maple Bacon, which to me was a bit too maple and a bit too bacon. But if this one was going to be over powering on flavors I figured you couldn’t go wrong with chocolate, peanut butter or banana.
Surprisingly enough, this beer was an amazing blend and balance.
It tasted like a great deep brown ale, with just a hint of all the other flavors. Matt and I both loved it.
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Another new to me drink that gets me through class is Zevia.
Well Zevia isn’t new to me, that is a long time obsession, but the Grape flavor was new to me.
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Tall boy to get me through class. You know it.
Black Cherry will always hold the top spot in my heart, but I was pretty impressed with the Grape.
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I also took the time cheer up my night time “dessert”.
Greek yogurt mixed with CytoSport Chocolate Casein with PB Thins as my little dunk-a-roos and then of course sprinkles to make it cute.
Because I love sprinkles. And they make everything better.
Right Sarah?
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Yum yum and yum.
I don’t know about you guys, but I almost always have to end my night with something sweet.
This hit the spot.
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Well dears, I need to get back to that stack of note cards, those bacteria are going to be the death of me.
No really anthrax can kill ya.
Ok lame joke, I know. I’m outta here.
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Have you had any accomplishment lately?
What your favorite bacteria?  Yersina pestic anyone? Bubonic plague? Bueller? Bueller?