food lately

It’s been awhile my loves and I apologize.

But I’m not that sorry, because I have been having a really good few last days.

A few personal things happened that I haven’t really shared on here, so to not go into a long back story, let’s just say things are going really well around here!

So I am typically pretty bad at following the What I Ate Wednesday rules, and this week will be no different.

One of these days I really will document a whole days of eats, but I just really like to link up, touch base, and participate so I hope another round of food’s lately are ok with you guys. And ok with the wonderful Jenn who hosts this get together for us every week.

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I haven’t been too lucky lately in having any legit almost empty jars to use for my overnight oats so I’ve been making due with what I do have and making my own.

I did happen to have an almost empty jar of homemade maple pumpkin puree.

Gotta work with that you have and it was a nice addition to my overnight prOATs.

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Overloaded and topped with 1/2 frozen banana, chopped nuts and hemp seeds.

All out of once filled jars, I just created my own.

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Just a boring empty jar filled with chocolate coconut overnight prOATs topped with mixed berries and chopped walnuts (a few white chocolate chips may or may not have been slipped in there).

Might be a little bit boring, but was still pretty delish.

I soon got sick of being boring and tried to spark things up a bit the next time around.

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Pretty sure chocolate and sprinkles makes everything better.

I added a healthy chocolate sauce swirl on the jar, filled the jar with banana cream prOATs  and then topped it all with more chocolate sauce, chocolate chips, trail mix and sprinkles!

It just makes breakfast a little more fun.

Then it’s off to crazy work.

Things have been a bit hectic around the clinic lately… luckily for me I have a few stress relievers within arms reach.

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It’s a blessing and a curse having a Starbucks right next door to our clinic. But red cups have been getting me through my work days like no other.

(Ps. peppermint mocha’s with soy are the best thing ever.)

And co-workers who bring in bagels are the devil and angel in disguise.

This was totally a second breakfast by the way. No shame.

Dinners have been needing some assistance lately.

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Take out seaweed salad. I wish it was more sushi, but this was a great appetizer while I cooked up some dinner.

Does anyone else go out for a food they were craving only to want it even more? That’s how I am with sushi. Once I have it, it’s all I want.

Another problem I have is I go to a place with one intention, but something else always seems to happen.

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I swear we went for just a beer.

But I just love chips, salsa and guacamole.

We weren’t even hungry and probably ate the whole basket of chips in 5 minutes flat.

And just in case you were wondering. The beer did happen. (like you had any doubts)

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(Matt said he is Jesus in the picture due to the crazy intense sun coming in the background. I just let him think what he wants.)

‘Jesus’ wasn’t able to help the Colts that day though. Horrible horrible game.

But moving on.

I actually made a fun dinner one night too!

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It’s amazing how the simplest ideas are something times the best.

This is just a simple BBQ chicken and veggie quesdailla drizzled with more BBQ sauce and Daiya cheddar cheese shreds.

Deeeeelish.

(Trader Joe’s Bold and Smokey Kansas City Style BBQ Sauce is the best BBQ sauce ever.)

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Well loves I actually have so much more to share with you, but it will have to wait until a later time.

So until then, have a wonderful rest of your week.

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What food/meal do you constantly crave? Seriously, I could eat sushi every day and never get sick of it. No really. We’ve already gone twice this week.

what i ate in los angeles

Oh loves! Hello!

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I have so much to share with you today.

As I mentioned in my last post, I knew I was going to be a bit MIA these last few days because Matt and I were off in Los Angeles visiting two three amazing people.

Our dear friends Greg and Sam just had a beautiful baby boy and we finally were able to go out and visit them and meet the little man himself.

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Meet little Archer. He is adorable.

But as much as I would love to swoon over this precious angel, it is Wednesday and all, so I figured since I not only got to spend time with some amazing people, I also got to enjoy some amazing LA food.

So for today’s What I Ate Wednesday, I am going to do What I Ate In Los Angeles.

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I know you guys are probably thinking and questioning, did I go safe this visit? Or did I use it as a challenge for myself.
That answer should be pretty obvious.
I always use these situations as a challenge for myself.
However, now I am really trying to not look at them as challenges. Because honestly that gives my ED way more attention than it deserves. The fact is I was going to visit friends and spend time with them. That’s it. I was just living life.
And let me tell you. Living life was pretty delicious this weekend.
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LA is a six hour drive from us, so Matt and I got up at the crack of dawn and were on the road by 6am. So breakfast was pre-made pb&j’s that I had prepared the night before. Not photo worthy in the slightest.
We arrived in LA around 1pm and trust me we were hungry! Thankfully Greg and Sam had some grilling foods ready for us!
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If you’re like me, one of the first things that you’re probably thinking is “why are the hotdogs cut like that?”. Greg found some crazy thing online stating that if you spirialize your hot dogs before you grill them it helps them cook better and are more crispy and evenly cooked. We took his word for it. I didn’t have one, but Matt seemed to think they were pretty fantastic.  I have a feeling if we ever grill hotdogs now he is going to want to do this. Not gonna lie, they look pretty cool.
I did however have three four of those chicken kabobs. And those were ah-mazing. I don’t know what it is, but grilled pineapple is one of the best things ever.
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After lunch we hung out with the little man for awhile, but then quickly got ready for our night plans. One of the main things we had wanted to do while we were in Los Angeles was to do a little brewery tour. You all know Matt and I love our beer and we love visiting different breweries as we travel. The breweries we visited were Monkish Brewing Co., Strand Brewing Co., and Smog City Brewing Co. We had intentions of going to one more, but after multiple beer tastings drinkings, we all got hungry and decided to go have dinner instead.  We went to a near by hot spot called Rock & Brews.
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After all the beer I had consumed, it was an under statement to say I needed some food.
I got an in house made veggie burger that was made with eggplant, white and black beans, vegetables and raw oats.
It was inhaled and it was delicious.
And for some reason when I drink, dessert is always a must.
Enter ice cream sundae.
No explanation needed for that one.
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The next morning we were all pretty slow to rise, but a baby can quickly change that. After we all had our morning coffee, we decided to head out for breakfast at one of Greg and Sam’s favorite breakfast joints; The Yellow Vase.
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I wish I could claim that amazing looking waffle as mine, but it was Matt’s.
(but don’t think that amazing up close bite shot didn’t go straight into my mouth)
I got an omelet stuffed with spinach, mushrooms, asparagus and sun dried tomatoes.
After dousing it with salsa, this thing was demolished. Along with a side whole banana and strawberries.
This girl can eat. No shame.
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After breakfast we decided to head down to a local farmers market.
I am so jealous of their farmers markets. So much fresh produce and fruit. I wanted it all.
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I really wish we went before breakfast because there were so many free samples, but I was just too stuffed  to eat more. Even though I wanted to. Really bad.
We did end up buying a few goodies. ButterRum Cake (oh my gosh the best cake I have eaten in a long time), High Fiber Whole Grain Carrot Bread, and Whole Wheat Cinnamon Raisin Bread. You guys know me and my carbs. Love them.
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We had a small lunch at the house, but around 4pm Sam and I got the frozen yogurt itch. It was National Ice Cream Day, so we decided frozen yogurt was necessary. But let’s be real, we would have gotten it anyways.
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My new favorite combination of mint and fudge brownie is hidden under there. Oh, and little swirl of Pecan Pralines. Because I can never make up my mind.
Shocker, I know.
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Dinner that night was another shared favorite of ours.
Sushi.
When I travel I do like to try and eat at places I can’t eat at home, but really, who would I be if I turned down sushi.
A crazy person that’s who. So I didn’t.
We went to one of their favorite restaurants, Fusion Sushi.
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All of it was delicious, but I think my favorite was the cucumber roll I got. I believe it was filled with crab, salmon and tuna. But it was one of the best cucumber rolls I have ever had. One of those things you wish didn’t end, and get really sad when it’s gone.
But let me tell you the one part of dinner I did not enjoy.
I like to be pretty adventurous with my eats and always say I will try anything once.
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This my friends is sea urchin.
Looks like a tongue. Tastes like a tongue.
I will not be eating this again.
Dis-gusting.
It was seriously  like putting dirty ocean in my mouth.
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We had to leave the next day, but in true Greg and Sam fashion, they sent us off with full bellies.
Sam made a delicious home made breakfast for us before we left.
I’m telling you. best.hosts.ever.
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I personally don’t like egg yolks, but Sam’s plate was just too pretty not to photograph.
Underneath were amazing home made biscuits and sausage gravy.  I had some of my new carrot bread topped with Trader Joe’s cocoa almond spread and a pear Chobani.
We had an amazing time, but of course wish we could have stayed longer, but life was calling back in Arizona, so back on the road we went!
And what’s a road trip without some road trip snacks?
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Those Trader Joe’s chocolate banana’s were eaten at the house, but seriously, these things are amazing. I think I ate half their box of them. Whoops.
The Good Bean chickpeas, Quest bars and Peanut Butter filled Pretzels were great travel snacks and for a quick lunch we stopped at Subway.
So my loves, as you can see I had a weekend full of great eats.
I was one stuffed happy girl.
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Oh wait.
Did you think it ended there?
It doesn’t.
When we got back into town it was around dinner time. I will admit I was a bit over whelmed mentally with the weekend. It was a big push for me. And I’m not going to lie, on the drive home I was planning my “safe” dinner. I knew I was doing it. So what did I do? Fought back. I told Matt how I was feeling and we both came up with the same solution.
We wanted to end the weekend with a bang.
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These were the sad faces as we left LA, but we made them happy faces by stopping at one of our favorite local Mexican spots for dinner and stuffing them with margarita’s and chicken burrito’s.
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I had an amazing weekend and did not want to go back to the reality of work and life, but I suppose that’s what being an adult is all about.
So loves, that’s all I have for you, but as you can see, my weekend was a pretty amazing one and was full of delicious eats, adorable babies, and amazing friends.
I hope you all have an amazing rest of your week.
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Have you ever tried sea urchin? If not, don’t.
Would you try anything once? Or do you stick to safe foods?

welcomings and weekend scenes

Happy Monday my lovies.

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Today is just automatically marvelous because the beautiful host Katie finally welcomed Baby G Baby Rocco into the world! I have been waiting anxiously for her to “pop” and was so happy to see she finally had her baby boy.  I am now so excited to see the updates on him! So congrats Katie and I know Rocco will have so much love in his life and is truly one lucky little boy.

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But let’s look at some marvelous scenes from my weekend.

I survived my first “real” week of work.  Not much has really changed other than the fact that I now get paid, but I do feel like the expectations are higher and I really want to prove myself.  Everyday I swear I am reminded why I chose this field.  Since my clinic works with a lot with breeders we do a lot of c-section deliveries.  The feeling of bringing little lives into the world never gets old.

Neither do these adorable faces.

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Are puppies not the most precious things ever?

Another perk with my job is we have some amazing clients who know the way to tech’s hearts. Typically as thank you’s we get Starbucks gift cards (because we are connected to a Starbucks and a lot of our clients know we’re addicted) or with food.
Remember this cute face I showed you a couple days ago?

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We had performed a pretty serious surgery on him after he was misdiagnosed by his previous vet and the owner was incredibly thankful, so thankful she brought us the most evil delicious cheesecake ever.

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It was the end of the day and we literally were just waiting for this little guy’s mom to pick him up, so we were all pretty anxious to go home, but I swear as soon as we saw the cheesecake, time didn’t matter and we all stayed to eat some. Yeah, 5 of us girls basically demolished at least half of this.  So just a hint, if you ever want to say thank you to your vet staff (which I think you should) food is always appreciated.

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Saturday I decided to do a pamper Debbie day.

I went and got my nails filled and well while I was there I might as well get a pedicure too right? That’s what I thought.

This guy had the same idea.

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If this isn’t proof that men can get pedicure’s too, I don’t know what is. (he also got his nails painted – and was very excited about the color)

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I debated forever on if I should paint the tips on my nails or keep them plain. I am so indecisive when it comes to making any decision it seems. I finally just decided to go for it (after tons of Instagram support and opinions). I love them and am so glad I decided to go for it.

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I mean, they even match the home made brew I drank a few hours later.

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Matt plays dodge ball with a guy who brews his own beer, so we’re always getting to sample his latest mixes. Can’t beat home brews!

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Well loves other than that the weekend was pretty low key, which I am ok with.  I love actually being able to relax and not have to rush around to get my errands done.  I will more than likely also have Monday’s off, so I get to enjoy a wonderful 3-day weekend.

I think I can get use to this.

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How do you pamper yourself?

Do you have any big Fourth of July plans?

with a loss their is always a gain

Hello my loves!

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I have a lot to share with you, but I will warn you it is not all food related. Actually most of it is not food related, but just some of the happenings around here.

As I mentioned my grandma had recently passed away.  As much as I did not want to, I took my mother’s offer of flying me out there for the funeral.  The reason I did not want to take her up on this, was again as briefly mentioned, me and my parents do not have the best of relationships, especially when it comes to money.  My mother does not let me forget when she gives me money or does something for me.  But I really wanted to say goodbye to my grandma properly and have that closure.  And even though it was the longest 2-day visit, I really do think it was worth it and I am so glad I got to say good bye to my grandma and see her one more time.

My flight was at 7am, meaning a 4:30am wake up call, so bright and early Matt and I headed to the airport. I always hate leaving him.

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Don’t ever want to let go!

And since my flight was so early, coffee is always a must at the airport.

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Double shot Americano thank you very much.

Oh funny story. The guy in front of me ordered an iced chai tea, they gave him a hot one instead.  So of course I asked if they were just going to throw it away, the barista actually offered me the whole coffee, which I declined, but not before I poured some into my Americano. Oh the perks of being so random and forward it kills me sometimes. But it made my Americano much better and much creamier!

When I arrived in Chicago, my friend Natalie picked me up from the airport. Since I haven’t seen her in awhile and as a little thank you for picking me up (and the fact I was really anxious/nervous about seeing my parents and grandma) we stopped for lunch and a drink.  I of course sent Matt a picture to make him jealous. (he was stuck at work and all)

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It was so great to catch up with her. And enjoy a good beer of course.

But I had to face reality and go to meet my parents at the funeral home. Well regardless of our past, I had a decent visit, had some good conversations with my parents in the short amount of time we had and the highlight of my trip, I got to see my niece!!

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Sometimes tragedy brings us together and I am so glad that I got to go back, say goodbye to my grandma, and spend some time with my family.

Overall a good visit. However I am completely exhausted and don’t know when, if ever, I will catch up on sleep.

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It definitely wasn’t the next day. Oh no. It was graduation day!

I contemplated not going to the ceremony because I was seriously a zombie walking that day.  I had a celebratory lunch with Matt’s parents and talked with them about possibly not going.  They talked sense into me and told me that I should go and I would more than likely regret it later if I didn’t.

Well let me tell you, they were right.  In looking at the program (as I was sitting waiting to get my diploma) I noticed something. I was valedictorian of my class!  I didn’t even know! I even got to go up on stage and receive a plaque from the school’s president. Kind of cool. On top of that I also made the school’s academic excellence list and was inducted into their honor society.  So needless to say, I am glad I went.  And it was good to see some of my classmates as well!

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Of course the ceremony was long, and we didn’t get home to late, but the next day being Saturday I would get to at least sleep in right?

Wrong.

I had to work at 7am. But it was at least an easy day and I got great news.

My externship was technically over on Tuesday and today they offered me a job!

So I am officially a paid employee now! I am so excited.

So instead of coming home, maybe taking a nap, this is how I spent the rest of my afternoon.

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Yup. Beer. And a side of Delilah. I like to day drink what can I say.

I then had a celebratory dinner.

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Roasted kabotcha with a side of valedictorian

Oh I’m sorry, did you think I was going to go out for dinner? I’m not getting paid yet. So no fancy dinners.

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Today I am actually planning to relax a little bit.

Maybe.

For a graduation gift Matt’s mom gave me some money to buy new scrubs so I think I am going to treat myself to a little shopping adventure today, but that’s pretty relaxing if you ask me!

So loves I hope you have a relaxing Sunday and have had a great weekend so far!

Next time I promise you some tasty eats.

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Would you ever consider skipping a graduation ceremony? I actually did not go to my first college ceremony BUT it was because I didn’t receive the notification.

How do you like to relax?

soccer, beer and oatmeal

Well loves, it’s that time again.

Time where we moan and groan that our weekends are over and it’s back to the daily grind of life. We call this Monday.

But thankfully the beautiful Katie gives us the opportunity to find beauty in this day with Marvelous In My Monday.

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I love having my weekends off, but I actually find that they are so uneventful.

Not having money will do that to you.

I also have the laziest fiance ever who finds nothing wrong with sitting on the coach all day and watching TV.  Trust me, I like to relax just as much as the next person, but sitting around for that long drives me a little crazy.  But with this insane Arizona heat (hello 110 degree days) and not having any finances, it kind of hinders any extracurricular activities and daily outings.

We make it though and find some fun things to do.

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Matt is on a soccer kick and really wanted to watch the USA vs Jamaica match on Friday, and since soccer isn’t huge out here and we don’t have cable we had to find somewhere to go watch it.  Knowing us, we can not go to a bar without ordering at least one drink, and really, it’s not too polite to take up a bar seat and not give the bartender some business. Solution? We cashed in our coin jar! Woo-hoo $25!

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Just enough for two drinks for each of us!

(I know, we’re such big spenders, but you gotta work with what you have!)

We do what we gotta do to make it an enjoyable night! And really, when we’re out together, we make fun happen!

And USA won! Yay! (I actually could care less about soccer, but we’ll pretend)

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See, look how fun we are.

(go with it)

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One thing I do however love about my lazy weekends is I actually get to prepare and enjoy breakfasts!

I know I will crave oats at least one day, and probably get a little too excited over it.

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I was craving my Berry Lemonade Overnight PrOATs like crazy. And lucky for me I had some berries that were on the brink of death that needed to be used. So glad I discovered this flavor combination because it is so delish.

Another predictable marvelous thing that happened this weekend was…

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Yea. It was bound to happen. I had told myself I was going to take a break from kabotcha because I seriously have no self control when it comes to eating these things, but when I went to the store and saw it…I just had to get one. Or two. (I guess this just proves the no self control theory) But only two!

Of course this happened that night.

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I was going to eat it plain and just roasted in the oven, but then I just couldn’t resist the melty peanut butter drizzle I love so much. Then more peanut butter happened… It’s a problem, but a problem I am ok with.

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Well loves, other than that my weekend was pretty boorr-ing. So I don’t have much else to report.

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and have a great week!!

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What do you do on your weekends? Do you try and stay busy or relax?

memorial day weekend happenings

Hello my loves and Happy Memorial Day!

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I truly believe this holiday is one of the most overlooked and under appreciated, so I really want to take a moment for us all to stop and remember that so many lives were lost for our freedom. All the small things we take for granted others fought for and died for so we could have. So remember; they died for us, so we need to live for them.

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I’m not going to lie though, the thought of having a 4-day weekend (yes mine was 4 days because I get Fridays off!!) got me a bit excited. I was just happy I was going to be able to relax. Little did I know there was going to be a little snag in my plans.

First there was the fact that I forgot Matt was attending Phoenix Comicon  (yes i know i’m dating a nerd, even though he went for work, i’m sure he would have went on his own if he had the opportunity) However, I am a bit of a Sci-Fi nerd myself and was a bit jealous he got to see this guy. I mean seriously. That’s one sexy captain.

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Dr Who anyone? Torchwood?

Anywho, since Matt was gone all day I was incredibly bored, but I managed to run a few errands to keep me occupied.

My first stop was Market on the Move.

It’s this awesome program where basically you go and donate $10 and you get to load up on a lot of fresh produce that they have that day. Other than the long lines (and it being 100 degrees) it was a pretty cool concept.

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People came prepared! Laundry baskets and wagons everywhere! A smart idea though, because the boxes they give you get heavy quick!

Here is my haul!

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I actually probably had double this amount, but my main reason for going was actually for a co-worker. She was wanting tomatoes for canning, so I loaded up on tomatoes for her and of course the acorn squash for me! I see a lot of mug cakes in squash in my future!

After that, I relaxed a bit, had some lunch and decided to do a little grocery shopping. Am I the only only who seriously loves to grocery shop? Even if I only need a few items, I love just walking around.

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Oh and finding beer on clearance. That’s pretty epic too.

Grocery shopping for some reason always makes me hungry. Even when I just ate, so when I got home I had a little pre-dinner snack.

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It’s been way too long since I have had this flavor! Or Chobani for that matter, but I had seen them on sale and snagged a few. It’s been too long Chobani, too long.

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The next snag in my weekend plans was me getting sick. I never get sick. Seriously, Matt got the flu, me nothing. About half my classmates and instructors got the flu, nope I was still good. And then randomly when no one else is sick, I get sick. Matt and I had planned for a Sunday Funday and then dinner on Memorial Day, so it really bummed me out.

Don’t worry guys. Day Quill works miracles and both happened.

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We actually ended up just walking downtown and Matt remembered of a pretty cool pub he had went to for a friends bachelor party. We were actually the only ones in the bar and got pretty chatty with the bartender. Girl hooked us up with free shots! (not sure I needed those shots, but hey they were free) Which led to an impromptu photo shoot of Matt and I.

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Oh the many faces of Matt and Debbie.

Tonight we have plans to go out to dinner at Blanco’s Tacos and Tequilla I got a coupon for Memorial Day and since we didn’t have any plans we thought why not! So I’m sure I will have a tasty re-cap of that night for you guys!

And if that wasn’t fun enough, Matt also got to start his day with special Memorial Day pancakes.

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Chocolate Chip Pancakes topped with granola.

I am way too good to him. 😉

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Well loves, I hope your Monday’s have been marvelous and relaxing and remember to head over to Katie’s to check out everyone’s Marvelous Monday happenings.

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What did you do for Memorial Day?

i will win

Hello hello my love bugs.

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I will warn you right off the bat, this post may be a little bi-polar.

I had an amazing experience that I want to share, but I also want to be completely honest and not make life seem all rainbows and butterflies.

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However, about 90% of my life is pretty much rainbows and butterflies lately, but we all have our ups and downs, and with every positive, sometimes there is a negative. It’s just how we handle that negative, do we dwell on it? Or do we move on?

And lately in my case, I have learned how to move on, find the positives, and not dwell on the past.

So if you’ve been reading lately, you know I have had a few amazing steps in my recovery lately.

Multiple frozen yogurt trips.

My sushi date out with friends.

My celebration dinner with Matt.

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I seriously feel like I am making huge strides in becoming normal again, eating normal again, losing the obsessiveness I had with food. I thought I figured out this is just what I need to do right now to get healthy. And yes, for me that means gaining weight. But I figured out I needed to stop looking at is as gaining weight, but getting healthy, getting my life back. It was an amazing freeing feeling and I was on cloud 9.

Then I saw how much I gained, and yes a little bit of me freaked out. Well a little bit of my ED freaked out. I wouldn’t say I pulled back per say, but I was a bit more anxious. One thing I am very proud of, is I never restrict anymore. So after my trip to my nutritionist, there was a part of me that was automatically planning my “safe” meal. When I have thoughts like these the one thing I try to do is challenge it. If I have an ED thought, I will counteract it. And then some.

So what did I do?

I called Matt up and said meet me out for a drink.

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A nice cold beer is what I needed to calm my nerves. This not only challenged my eating disorder with not going home to “be safe”, but also oh my gosh how many calories were in that beer? Who cares. I was with Matt, I had comfort, half the anxiety was gone.

But with it still being early, I still had time to choose to go home and make dinner.

And I almost did.

Then I brought up to Matt eating dinner out. Half the battle was won. But when we started talking about restaurant options, the ED started to sneak back in. I will be honest in saying I was trying to think of the safest restaurant I could. We both couldn’t agree on a place and since we were in a shopping area, I suggested just walking around to see if we could find a place that sounded good to both of us. We turned onto a street we both had never been down and there were two restaurants. Sauce (pizza) and Zoe’s Kitchen. (semi-healthy sandwiches).

Automatically out of my mouth came, “oh, let’s try Zoe’s Kitchen”.

I then thought about why I was choosing that restaurant, looked at Matt and said (pardon my french) fuck it, let’s get pizza.

So that’s what we did.

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I started with more liquid courage.

(because really what’s pizza without beer)

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And then followed it with this beauty of pizza.

Guys, it has been a long time since I have had pizza out.

You want to talk about fear food, this cheesy masterpiece was one of them.

I am happy though to report that I ate 2/3 of it. All by myself.

I left comfortably full, satisfied, and back on cloud 9. I knew I had beat ED.

And if that wasn’t enough, we had plans to meet a friend who was in town for more drinks.

Yup. Beer. Pizza. More beer.

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This was a banana beer which just makes everything better.

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But with these rainbows came some rain.

Working at an animal facility, there is a huge scale available to weigh the dogs. I take advantage of that, because a long time ago I threw away my scale at home. So when I stepped on that scale, saw the number, I freaked. I know better than to weigh myself. It’s on the top of the my nutritionists’ list of things not to do. But sometimes I go against my better judgement and I do it anyways. I don’t know, it’s really just self-sabotage, but this is just a part of me that isn’t recovered yet. But again, I am getting really good at fighting my ED thoughts. I walked away thinking “Debbie, this is a good thing. This is getting healthy. This is what you need to do.” Because let’s be honest, if I want to be a successful vet tech, I can’t weigh what I weigh. And what, did I go to school just to not be able to perform at my job? No. I didn’t.

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So even though I battled my disordered thoughts. Got through them. Talked sense into myself, I did want to be honest that I still do have these thoughts. And even though I like to document the achievements and high moments, there are still low moments. But again it’s how we fight and counteract them.

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And to show my ED who really is boss, this happened too.

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I teased you guys earlier in my WIAW post about this tasty treat, and lemme tell you, it was tasty.

We were walking back to the car from the bar and walked past Sparky’s Old Town Creamery, which is kind of like a Cold Stone, but better.

After sampling probably every flavor, we decided to get Chocolate Fudge Brownie. You also get one free add in and I decided on chocolate chips. Seriously, something about chocolate chips in my ice cream I am obsessed with. Matt insisted we get it in a chocolate covered cone, we were informed that the cone was actually a topper because the ice cream doesn’t fit in it. Works for me!

This was so good. And so worth it.

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Overall though I will say I think I have accepted what I need to do.

I have seen the positives of challenging my ED and the negatives of falling victim to the thoughts.

So loves, yes I still have my challenges, but I have decided to fight them, battle ED, and I will win.

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marvelous new beginnings

Happy Monday my love bugs!

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I can’t believe it’s already Monday, my weekend just seemed to have flew by. I am also such a mix of emotions right now. I actually just sent an e-mail to my potential externship site to set up a finalized schedule with them. I am so nervous about actually starting to work, but also so excited to be actually starting to work! Funny how one experience can give you multiple emotions. The clinic I choose I think will offer me a lot though in terms of a learning experience and exposing me to a wide range of client and animal care experiences. The doctor was very honest in saying some of their clients are somewhat “difficult”, this being because they kind of cater to the breeding/show dog community, so the owners can be a bit “demanding” if you will.

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But the doctor along with the staff seemed really laid back and easy to get along with, so I think that will balance out the needy/challenging clients. Another thing I’m worried about? My schedule will be 7am-6pm. Oh yes, I have 11 hour days in my future. And considering I am a bit OCD when it comes to schedule, this scares me. But in the big picture I think this will be good for me. Because let’s be honest, my fears are: 1. I won’t have time to exercise (eating disordered fear that needs to be addressed) 2. I won’t be able to plan my meals, I may have to eat what they order in (eating disordered fear that needs to be challenged) 3. I won’t know what time I will be home and I will be exhausted (this fear is legit).

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So I actually think this schedule will be good for me in the long run for my recovery. I will not get to work out everyday (which my nutritionist has been begging me not to do for some time now), I will be forced to eat uncomfortable foods (foods that are normal to eat and I shouldn’t have a problem with anyways). It will force me to face issues I have been hiding from. So, I’m scared, yes, but ready for the challenge. My end goal is to get better and not have eating disordered thoughts, so let’s go big or go home!

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But enough of that, because as we know Monday’s are the time to be marvelous.

So make sure you head over and visit the lovely Katie and see how we all find the marvelous in our Monday’s.

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My weekend was full of fun times. I knew it would be my last Friday off for awhile so Matt and I took advantage of it. The weather here has been absolutely gorgeous, so I told him day drinking was in order. We even made a lunch date and went to a local taco stand  that he raved about.

First exciting thing about this place?

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I had only heard of this wonderful contraption and it was my first time using a flavor machine.

I chose Cherry Vanilla Coke Zero.

It was pretty tasty! And fun!

I am sorry to say though that the burrito I ordered was meh. Nothing special.

Thank goodness we had started with this.

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The guacamole and salsa were amazing! This pretty much saved my burrito. I smothered that bad boy with the guacamole.

I like guacamole more than a normal person probably should.

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Looking at this picture actually makes me kind of sad because I want more.

At least I know where to find it right?

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Sunday was pretty fun as well. While all you crazy kids were out celebrating Cinco de Mayo, I was stuck at work. Thankfully next weekend will be my last weekend (there is no way I’m working 11 hour days and working the weekend). I did  however sneak away on my break and met Matt  at a local brewery for a quick drink.

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And yes I know it was Cinco de Mayo and maybe I should have gotten a margarita, or maybe a Corona in tribute, but this beer snob doesn’t roll like that. I got an amazing IPA that was way better than any margarita.

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I know you’re probably thinking, you drank on your break?? Ok truth. I probably only drank 1/3 of that beer and left the rest for Matt. He happily obliged. Like that kid would ever turn beer down.

Other than that my weekend has been pretty quiet. But there’s always a calm before the storm right?

Have a wonderful week loves, I start my extern Tuesday, so you may not hear from me for awhile.

I hope I survive.

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Did you celebrate Cinco de Mayo?