wiaw #37 – snack monster

Yup. That’s me.

A snack monster.

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This change of schedule has totally messed with my eating schedule/habits. I haven’t decided if it’s a good or bad thing yet. Of course I think it is a bad thing, constant eating, eating when not really hungry. Not a good habit if you ask me. ED hates it too. Of course. This means I might just actually gain weight (like I’m suppose to).  I just don’t like unhealthy habits.  There will be a time when I am at a “normal” weight and a habit of boredom eating isn’t really desirable.  But oh the woes of an eating disorder. And boredom. Haha.

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Even though mentally I am conflicted by this change in eating, I have been snacking on some pretty tasty things. Ironically as I was writing this post I saw a tweet from Jenn saying June would be “snacky”. Ironic? Fate? Either way, I thought it was funny I was already writing a snack-tastic post. So let’s get snacking!

Thanks to the lovely Heather, I have had some tasty bars available to me.

Since I’m really on  a “no work out plan” from my nutritionist I wasn’t a huge bar consumer. Well, that’s not exactly true. I’m not a whole bar at one time consumer. It will usually take me a day or two to finish a bar because it’s usually my tide me over to the next meal kind of snack.  I do love my bars though!

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Morning snack-age has looked like this recently.

Ok, that Enjoy Life Sunbutter Crunch bar. Pretty much amazing. And go figure they aren’t in my stores.

Thanks for the tease Heather 😉

And the local granola I got at the farmer’s market has been making it into my mouth quite a bit.

I can’t help that I am a snacker. I see it. I looks good. I grab a handful.

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Mid day snacks are happening too.

In the best way possible.

A day without Chobani is not a good day in my book. And let’s be honest, I don’t think I could go a day without some sort of greek yogurt in my life. And I can’t help that I am a Chobani snob. That stuff needs to not be so expensive.

But my most recent obsession?

Chocolate Peanut Butter Hummus.

I’ve made my own little version of STUFT Mama’s, but I do blame her for my recent addiction.

I can not get enough of this stuff.

And let’s take a minute to talk about my gingerbread protein “muffins”.

I saw a recipe on Peas and Thank You for homemade gingerbread clif bars and of course tweaked it a bit and made “muffins”.

Whatever they are, they are amazing.

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And for dessert?

Let’s look at some of my awesome challenge dessert snackings lately!

I’ve been doing amazing with pushing past my “fatty dessert” comfort level. Definitely worth mentioning!

A real blizzard. Oreo style! And I ate it all! Frozen yogurt, ok kind of safe, but this was after a full dinner out, but I was with friends and tried to push myself with the amount and toppings. And peanut butter after dinner is usually a no no, especially on a piece of banana bread. Nope, this was devoured and was delicious! (PB Crave made it extra special. Oh my. I couldn’t decide on one flavor and did two. Typical.)

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That’s it for this snack monster. I hope everyone has a lovely week!!

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What have you been snacking on lately?

Do you mind snacking during the day or do you try to stick to your three meals?

eat that ED

This will be short and sweet.

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Accomplishments.

Before.

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After.

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Take that ED!!

I win!

wiaw #35 – jammin’ it up

Hello Loves.

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A little late to the party, but better late than never.

I was going to try and bust out a post last night, but studying kind of over took my night.  It is finals week, and this week is extra crazy.  I have a huge practical that started yesterday, that I didn’t end up doing, but will today. A quiz also today, and then my final on Friday. Whew. Crazy huh?

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But thankfully, my next class is an audit class which technically I don’t get credit for because all my previous core classes transferred.  But for attendance reasons I still have to go. I know. Silly. I am going to a class (at 7am mind you) for no credit.  But o’well. Even though I have to attend class I still kind of get a break because I don’t have to do any of the work.  Let’s look at the positives shall we!

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So I have actually switched up my eats quite a bit last week! Challenged myself multiple times. I’m serious. I am totally almost over my hill on this eating disorder! I can feel it! I am doing so good lately!  Yes I am starting to have those thoughts of “oh my gosh my thighs are so huge” but you know what. They’re not.  I am suppose to have fat there. It’s normal. It’s healthy. And guess what. It’s beautiful. Ok, I may not believe that last one whole heartedly yet, but I have faith one day I will.

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So let’s get on to the eats shall we?

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First up. Breakfast was super good because of a little jewel I whipped up.

I saw a recipe on Powercakes and STUFT Mama for a chia jam and had to make some. I had bought a bunch of fresh raspberries and blueberries so I thought perfect!

And it was.

I took about half a cup, maybe a little bit more of fresh berries and stuck them in the microwave for a minute.

Mashed them up and put about 1 tablespoon of chia seeds in. I used white chia seeds.

I also added a few drop of NuNaturals Vanilla Stevia.

Let it sit in the fridge for about 30+ minutes to gel. And wha-la. Instant deliciousness.

Enjoyed on top of a Rudi’s English Muffin.

This stuff was tasty. Totally.

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So on to a few challenges I gave myself. I had an amazing weekend full of them.  Matt and I went to the farmers market on Saturday and spontaneously I decided I wanted gelato.

Demolished. And delicious.

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Sunday we ran a few errands and while we were out, I got hungry. Normally I high-tail it home for lunch. Nope. Not today.

Beers and appetizers with my babes! What normal people do.

(By the way, we went to a local brewery and they have the most amazing Peach Ale. I love it.)

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Dinner? Yes challenges there too.

Yes friends. Chicken Alfredo.

Now this did come in the packaged variety, which was an extra challenge for me. I did not make it. I could not “healthify” it, if you will. Nope. White pasta and all that creamy goodness. And it was good. And I ate it all!

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It feels so awesome to talk back to my ED and to win. I just want so bad to get back to that normal. To eat just to eat. Not worry about every little thing that goes into my mouth. Not pretend that my “healthy” habits are to be healthy and not ED related. Guess what, more than likely they are. People don’t go raw, do juice detoxes, eliminate carbs from their diets for 100% health reasons.  It’s that little voice telling them they need to. Carbs are bad. Processed food is evil (ok I stay away from a lot of processed foods, but not the main point).  I am also not saying everyone who leads a healthy eating lifestyle has an eating disorder either, but we are so influenced by society and what’s considered beautiful, that I think it does underlie in a lot of people.

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But anywho. On to happier things. Like this huge practical I should be studying for instead of sitting on the computer. But I just love and miss you guys so much! And thankfully with my “break” next month I will be around a lot more. Muahahah. Be prepared.

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Have a lovely week all.

Oh. And before I leave. How can I not do well on my practical when I have this lovely background to stare back at me.

Yea. I pretty much have the best fiance ever. Nuff’ said.

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What are your plans for Memorial Day? Anything fun?

I still need peanut butter recipes for my Artisana review. Any suggestions?

 

celebration sushi

Happy Saturday my loves!

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I hope everyone’s weekends have started out lovely.

I know mine has.

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Let me explain. If you read my last post, I kind of did an update on my eating disorder and how I have been handling it.

Well folks. I seriously feel so refreshed. I think I am finally pushing over that hump and realizing I need to do what I need to do to be healthy. Yes, I may be uncomfortable, and yes I may not be completely happy with how I look/feel, but you know what. I want to live. And I will do whatever it takes.

I’m starting to realize I have so much to live for and so much to give.

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I also am in a great mood because I found out my test score. I also mentioned about how well I was doing in school. I kind of surprise myself at how easy I am picking this all up, but it also confirms that I made the right decision and this is what I really want to do. So that is exciting!

But my last test, I totally felt uneasy about afterwards. Usually our tests are at least 50 questions, but for this class there are only 25, but the test is still worth the same amount. So basically if you miss 3 questions you’re down to an 82%. That’s a little intimidating!  So after the test I had mentally marked at least 4 that I was unsure about. Not a great feeling to have.  But I had done my best. What else can I do.

I really contemplated checking my grade later in the day. The teacher is awesome at posting them right away, so I knew they would be up. I figured, hey why not. And to my pleasant surprise I had a 96% staring back at me!! I seriously got so giddy, ran into the other room where Matt was and said “we’re going out to celebrate because I am just so smart”

And can you guess where we went?

Sushi. Duh. You all know me too well.

Since moving, we haven’t found “our sushi spot” yet. The place we decided to try last night was amazing none the less, but a bit pricey, so I don’t know that it will become “our spot” but it was an amazing was to celebrate!

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This place was really neat. Very nice atmosphere.

My wonderful date. Love that face.

(Ps. it’s “Mustache May” at Matt’s work which is what explains him only having the mustache. Typically he has full facial hair. I promise he’s not a creeper. Ok, so he’s kind of a creeper. ♥)

It was happy hour, so of course we had to get sake.

We started with tuna tataki. Pretty too look at. Delicious to eat.

Matt got a spicy tuna crunch roll. He said it was amazing.

I got a rainbow roll. Also very delicious.

And we each got a spicy yellow tail. Ok seriously. I know yellow tail is a buttery fish to begin with, but this fish was amazing. So glad we ended on these rolls. And that we each got our own!

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And what’s a celebration with out a few (more) drinks? Not a celebration if you ask me.

My night ended with this.

We spent the rest of the night hanging out on the couch watching some Netflix.

Honestly. Perfect date night if you ask me.

Again, it is nice to “get back to normal”.

It feels great!

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Well loves I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

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How do you celebrate your accomplishments?

What has been making you happy lately?

 

i mean, it is cinco de mayo – update

Hello Loves.

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I know. I know.

I have totally been MIA again.

I’m sorry. Please forgive me?

School has again taken over my life and honestly other then going to school, not much has been going on.

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Although I did recently have an event that is worth mentioning.

I haven’t done an update post on how I am doing. Eating disorder wise.
So I figured with recent events, now would be a good time.

So. I’m doing good. And not so good.  I’ve kind of been up and down.

I will have a great week. Gain. Things are good. People are happy. But then I freak out.

It’s like I know I need to gain weight, but when I actually push, and it actually happens. It freaks me out a bit. Or let’s say it freaks my ED out.

Source

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It just seems like the places where I have started to gain weight, are the exact areas that got me here in the first place.  I know the hardest thing about recovering from this disorder for me is going to be self acceptance.  Accepting that my thighs and belly may never be how I want to them to be, but guess what. That’s ok. I’m perfect the way I am.

Source

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So what typically happens when I come to a stand still and I don’t gain as much as my nutritionist wants?
You guessed it. She takes me out for a challenge meal. And trust me. This lady does not let me slide with my ED eating habits.

What did she choose? Mexican food.

I use to love Mexican food. Well I still do, just of course minus all the cheese and sour cream now. And chips? Nope. Because those are fried. Duh.

Now, I typically do pretty well at my food challenges. I make sure I go hungry.  This time Matt came with too, so that was a big help to have that extra support.

When it came time to order, she didn’t even let me stick to my mostly vegetarian eating habits. She really wants me to get better protein in, so I knew that one was coming.

Now I’m not going to lie, there was a ton of anxiety leading up to dinner. I did great though throughout my day and made sure not to restrict at any other meal.  I got a little pep talk before dinner and off we went. Once I vented a bit about why I was anxious, heard how silly I sounded, I calmed down so much. And to be honest, I really did want to enjoy myself. If I had to do it, might as well indulge in the situation. So I did.

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Here is what we all got.

I guess I went kind of safe with a chicken burrito. I did however get some enchilada sauce on the side. So glad I did.  I actually wanted to get shredded pork, but I haven’t had red meat in so long, we were a little concerned on how my stomach would react. Another accomplishment? About halfway through my burrito I said I was full.  I don’t know if I was full or if my ED was full.  But my nutritionist did not let that slide. I was basically told that I had to finish my plate considering I didn’t get beans or rice or any sides.  After I was done…I realized ED had been full before, because I ate every last bite and wasn’t “stuffed”.  And you know what, I didn’t feel guilty for cleaning my plate.

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Proof!

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Matt I believe got carne asada tacos.  He finished his plate too, so I’m assuming they were good.

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My nutritionist ordered the tamales, which the restaurant is known for. She made me try a sample of hers and oh goodness.

I actually wish I ordered what my nutritionist got, but I told everyone more reason for me to go back! And you know what. I think I will.

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So yes, I have been doing really well pushing myself food wise.  What I am struggling with is how I feel afterwards.  I still sometimes have that guilt of “I ate too much” “I should be full”.  I am slowly learning though to honor my body.  And if it tells me it wants more. It wants more. End of story. No guilt.

I’ll get there though, because there is no turning back for this girl!

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I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

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What have you challenged yourself with lately?

friday fun!

Happy Friday (the 13th ooou scary) my loves!

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I saw this on a few other blogs and actually liked this one, so I thought I would give it a whirl!

Why not it’s Friday right? And it’s not like I don’t have a test to cram for or anything.

Pssh. Test. Study.

Who does that?

So here we go. A little Friday fun!

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10 Questions About My Personality

1. When a cashier in the checkout line at the grocery store is being a grump for no reason, how do you typically react?

I’m actually awesome at this. When cashier’s are crabby I almost always make a joke. Like I’ll say “bad day huh?” or “hope you’re getting off soon”. Key is to always say it with a smile (or they may think you’re being a jerk) but I feel a lot of times people aren’t aware that their attitude is so readable and sometimes the little comment will a) make them realize things may not be that bad and they should have a better attitude or b) at least be aware that people are noticing they are being crabby.  I typically can get a smile out of people and I hope I made their work day just a little less bad.  But let’s be real, working in customer service sucks.

But sometimes I’m not going to lie, if I’m in a bad mood too, they get the stare. Haha. Although sometimes when I’m in a bad mood, and I see others in a bad mood, it makes me realize I’m being crabby and maybe I shouldn’t take things so seriously. It’s all just a big circle.

2. Are you the type that likes going out with your girlfriends or staying in?

Kind of both. I love being with my friends. But I feel like I am past that point of going out and partying. I did that in college. Got it out of my system. Now I much prefer to sit at home with the fiance, watch some TV, and just relax.  Matt and I are so busy, that sometimes it’s just nice to sit. And do nothing.  But I do love my friends. Don’t get me wrong. ♥

3. Do you sob and get emotional watching romance movies?

I use to. And now, not so much. Unless it’s real sad, like true sad. Not like oh no the guy didn’t get the girl. More like a real story, something that’s based on a true story, that is just really sad. Does that make sense?

4. What stresses you out the most?

Right now school. And recovering from my eating disorder of course. I constantly think of both. I need to settle down, relax and let things happen. I’m doing great in both actually. So I need to realize I need to focus on my positives and not my negatives. Accept what happens. And when it happens, good or bad, take it for what it is and move on! Sounds easy right?

5. What do you think people think of you?

Gosh. I don’t know. And I am finally at a point where I don’t care! I actually am focusing on me. Getting healthy. Achieving what I want to achieve. And I’m not letting anyone stop me this time!  Now don’t get me wrong I don’t want people to think I’m a pompous jerk. (I had a girl in my class say at first she was totally intimidated by me). I feel like I am a very caring person and would basically bend over backwards for a stranger.  But if someone is going to judge me before knowing me, that doesn’t really bother me anymore. I’m working on bettering myself right now and I’m proud of the woman I am becoming!

I am super nice though. I promise 😉

6. When you overindulge do you hit the gym to burn it all off, or just accept the indulgence and follow your same routine?

At this point in my life (and recovery) I can’t just go hit the gym.  But, I have a totally new outlook on this. Before? I would hit the gym or restrict, but through my recovery process I have learned that not only mentally should we accept the indulgence for what it is, indulgent, but realize that if we indulge one day, it is not going to impact us long term. I mean scientifically it’s just not possible! Permanent weight gain takes years. You heard me. Years. I also feel if you deprive your body of what it really wants, it is only going to crave it more. And then you might over-indulge (if that even exists).  I’m learning just to enjoy life. And if I want a piece of cake, I’m going to have it. And if I gain a pound. Who cares. I’m sick of living by all these rules. I just want to live life and be happy.

7. Are you easily annoyed?

It depends. I’m usually pretty easy going.  Again, maybe that comes with age. I’m done with the drama, and done sweating the small stuff.  Not going to lie I have my little quirks (using this word always cracks me up because it’s Matt’s last name. Soon to be mine. gah!) So sometimes super small things do annoy me. I think everyone has those though.  Maybe that’s why I’m going to be a vet tech.  Animals never annoy me.

8. What do you think is your biggest personality flaw?

Sometimes I tend to overreact before I really think about whats going.  I’ll so angry in a flash, lash out (typically at Matt, poor guy) and then almost instantly regret how I acted and have to apologize with my tail in between my legs.  If I just thought about things before reacting I could probably save a ton of petty arguments. Seriously, I got angry at Matt for not leaving enough hummus in the container last night. I mean really? Is there a proper amount you’re suppose to leave?  As soon as I was done yelling, it was kind of a “are you serious” moment I had with myself. I’m working on it.

9. What is one thing you don’t think people see enough of when it comes to your personality?

I don’t let people see that I struggle.  School, eating disorder, no job, family problems, sick grandma. It all  takes a huge toll on me, but I still don’t like to bother others with my problems so I don’t let it show.  So when I get sad, mad, frustrated, it looks like it comes from no where, but it’s coming from a whole bunch of internal garbage. I need to be more vocal and talk about what’s going on with me.

10. Can you feel relaxed in a busy crowd or messy room?

It depends on what. Certain things I’m the messiest person ever, other things I’m OCD clean freak.  I can’t even explain it. Desk = organized. Clothes/Closet = not organized. Fridge = super organized. School stuff = all over the freaking place!

Yes my Chobani’s have to be lined up. By flavor.

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Well loves I hope you enjoyed reading a bit about at least what I think of my personality. Have a wonderful weekend!!

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Question:

Answer one above about yourself!

Do you have scary Friday the 13th plans? I kind of want to watch some of the movies! How cliche I know!

wiaw #29 – going green

Good morning loves.

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First I want to apologize for being so MIA. Things have been really crazy around here.  I went back to Indiana last weekend to visit my grandma.  She has recently been diagnosed with cancer and recently started her chemotherapy. Why an 84 year old chose to do chemotherapy, I’ll never know, but I’ll keep my true opinions to myself.

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If you follow my blog you know that my parents have been extremely un-supportive when it comes to my eating disorder and my recovery. I do believe my father told me that I’m 28 and I should just take responsibility for my problems, stop blaming others, and get on with my life. Then later admitted him and my mother had both had body image problems and obsessions while we were growing up. Yet they see no correlation between the two? Amazing. I never blame anyone for my eating disorder, what I try to explain is their personal body images issues influenced me as a child. I mean seriously. How could it not.

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Anywho. Not my point. But the weekend was. Good? Good in the fact that I got to spend some quality time with my grandmother.  I bit my tongue when it came to my parents. And this somehow made my mother think we were okay and things were good again.  Another realization she is so out of it and just doesn’t get it.

I also got to spend some quality time with my friend Kimmie, who was so giving and let me stay at her house while I was visiting. This girl is seriously amazing and deserves her own post on how much she has supported me and showed me what a true friend really is. Unconditional love. She is amazing. Enough said.

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I also got to see my sister, who just recently told me she is pregnant!! I am so excited to be an aunt and wish I could be closer, but I am super excited none the less!!

It was really great to be able to spend some time with her, and we had a real good conversation. I think she kind of “gets” it a little bit more with what is going on with me. I would never want to tarnish her relationship with my parents, but I also think she needs to be aware of what’s really going on and how they treat me. Because honestly, they are very very cruel to me.

But I’ve also been trying to stay real positive about things. I need to focus on me and getting better and if my parents do not want, or can’t, be a part of that right now, then they just simply won’t be in my life right now. Does that hurt? Of course. They’re my parents. But I’ve realized I need to do what’s best for me right now.

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I also have started my vet tech classes again. So overwhelming. It is my sanitation and nutrition class and we actually do a lot of hands on with the animals at the school. A lot to learn in a short amount of time, but I am excited to actually be working with the animals.

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But those are my excuses for being so absent, but I of course had to come around for What I Ate Wednesday.

Duh.

Jenn wanted to continue the theme trend with Going Green.

Since I had not been home to really cook my meals, I thought I would showcase some of my favorite ways to cook and eat green foods.

Because let’s be real. I eat a lot.

First though you know my rules. Head over to Jenn’s site at PeasandCrayons and check out everyone’s weekly eats. It always makes me hungry.

Why do I check them in the morning before breakfast? It’s dangerous.

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So let’s look at some green eats I have been having lately.

Broccoli.

I seriously eat so much of this stuff.

I eat it oven roasted marinated with a little bit of braggs amino acids and a sprinkle of spices.

I eat it in stir fry’s.

And even raw in delicious fresh salads.

I love the stuff.

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Spinach.

Green smoothies anyone?

Served as a fresh summer salad.

Or paired with a pita sandwich.

Even on top of a pumpkin hummus tortilla pizza.

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Not enough green?

What about spinach tortellini and oven baked veggies?

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Black Bean Quesadilla with some chopped lettuce?

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I even add some green to breakfast.

(this really makes me miss summer fruit)

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I think you get the point. I eat a lot of green!

Well loves, I hope everyone has a great week!

I’ve had some challenging moments lately, but I am trying to stay positive and focus on the future.

My wonderful bright future.

So I will leave you with a few inspirational quotes in case you’ve been having some rough times too.

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Do you eat a lot of green?

Do you try to make your meals colorful?

What’s your favorite color/food?

 

wiaw #26 – ups and downs

Hello loves!

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I first want to say Happy Valentine’s Day (I know a bit late) but I truly hope you all had someone special to spend it with.  Whether it be a significant other, or just simply family or loved ones.

i love cupcakes.

I’m not a huge Valentine’s Day person in the sense of having to have a big celebration, but I do look at it as a day of love, and that can be with anyone.

I just am lucky to have a wonderful fiance to spend it with.

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Matt and I decided to do a low key Valentine’s Day as we typically do. We went to one of our favorite vegan restaurants, The Green Restaurant.  Matt is not vegetarian anymore, but he was kind enough to take me there.  Their food is so good, even if you aren’t a vegetarian I think you would enjoy it. I will be doing a Valentine’s Day update post tomorrow, so check back to see how my day went!

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Here’s a sneak peak of something I got to enjoy a day early!

what was left of the chocolate covered strawberries matt and i devoured.

We had met Matt’s parents for lunch and we got an early Valentine’s Day gift. All I can say is yum! Clearly I couldn’t wait to take a picture before this happened.

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But since this is What I Ate Wednesday, and I have actually switched things up a bit, I thought I would share with you some new eats.

So we know my drill. Head over to the beautiful Jenn’s at PeasandCrayons and check this little shin dig out. The lovely lady is so kind to host this every week and I truly look forward to it!

 

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So what’s with the title you ask?  Well. Things have been good and bad around here. I’m pretty open about my life on here, so if you follow me, even just occasionally, you know that I am in my recovery process from an eating disorder.  Things were really hard in the beginning, but I pushed through and made great progress. I started school and then things just kind of. Tapered off.  I think I let myself use school as an excuse to not push as hard, and got to a comfortable spot.  Well, let’s just say my therapist and nutritionist were not happy with my stagnant stand still and have really been getting on my case about my lack of weight gain.  Also the fact that I was eating pretty much the same foods everyday.  Ruts anyone? But I have recently really started to push myself again. To remind myself that I need to gain weight.  And that I will not become overweight over night.  My nutritionist is amazing and flat out tells me she will never let me be overweight. I trust her to recognize if I get in bad habits or patterns. So lately I’ve done the work.  Am I a bit uncomfortable? You bet. But it is what I need to do to beat this, and I will do what it takes.

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So let me show you some fun new eats I have had lately.

I had seen a picture on Food Gawker and I just couldn’t get this simple lunch out of my head.  I finally made my own little version.

simple little sandwich.

The original recipe was for a chive spread, but I didn’t really have anything to make it with, but I did have a laughing cow swiss cheese wedge that I used as my base. Topped with alfalfa sprouts and some tomato.  So simple, but seriously so tasty. I used Ezekial sprouted bread which I am obsessed with. I am totally a carb girl, so good bread gets me really excited and really makes a difference when it comes to simple sandwiches.

on the side my very first cara cara orange!

I’ve been seeing these guys all over the blog world and on my last trip to Trader Joe’s I decided to give in and buy a bag! I had been wanting to switch up my fruits anyways, I feel like all I eat are banana’s and apples. I could probably become one! I forgot how much I liked oranges. And so pretty too!

i know it's super simple, but it was a nice switch up. i enjoyed it!

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Another new and simple recipe came at dinner time.

i made my own mushroom noodle casserole.

Again, super simple. I haven’t used canned condensed soups in forever. And for good reasons. Some of the stuff they put in there. Meh. But again, I saw a recipe for this and thought hey why not. I need to start challenging myself and eating things I’m not 100% comfortable with, because sometimes I really think the whole “healthy eating” is just a cover up and an excuse for restricting. Not all, and not everyone. But some. And a few preservatives now and then won’t kill me!  So I put some garlic infused cream of mushroom soup with some linguini and added some peas. Baked this bad boy up for a bit and enjoyed!

it was actually pretty tasty. and i enjoyed it more than i thought i would.

I really am working hard on trying to add a little variety to my diet. Even if it’s not a fancy meal, something different is still good.

Again, it was super simple, but a nice change from what I had been eating.

i.love.peas.

No really. I love peas. I love almost any veggie though. I’m weird. I know.

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Another challenge that I’m pretty proud of happened a few days ago.

I had been  craving fro-yo lately. (Heather I totally blame you) and I saw a Groupon for a place near Matt’s work that we hadn’t tried. Talk about impulse buy! Come to find out it was one where you had to use it that day! No backing out for me, I was not wasting my money. So I drove out to surprise Matt and really pushed myself to make a normal sized cup. Not a eating disordered portion. And you better believe I devoured it all!

demolished!

I enjoyed every last bite of this! Oatmeal cookie and thin mint yogurt topped with strawberries, pineapple, graham cracker crumbs, cotton candy sprinkles and a few marshmellows.

This thing was delish!

matt clearly enjoyed his too!

I don’t even remember what all went into Matt’s. Like five different flavors. I did get a bite of his red velvet cake and that was pretty tasty as well!

So I was very proud of myself because I finished my whole cup. No guilt. No hard feelings. I just simply enjoyed it!

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Did you have a good Valentine’s Day?

Have you been in a situation lately where you had to push/challenge yourself?

How do you get those hard uncomfortable times?